You act, write screenplays, write childrens books, write and sing the songs. You must be very busy.
I left LA Law when I was 28. I left because I thought This kind of job is going to kill me. It takes up so much of your time and your focus. When youre working, youre at working 16-18 hours a day and youre there at 4 o clock in the morning. You dont have a lot of psychological space to do other stuff.
I like being an actress, I like it alot. But when you work in television theres no joy in that. You do that to make money. There are rarely great experiences in television because so many factors are working against you. So you have to decide what you want your life to be.
I didnt want this to be my life. You go from a good series to maybe a bad series. Ive got a ton of cash, but I never really did these other things, things that Ive always really wanted to do. Theres a moment when you realize that youre not going to live forever , when youre around 32 and you go oh my gosh, I dont have that much time. Ill have a lot of time to rest when Im old. When I imagine being old, I hope Ill have some of my eyesight left so I can read. Im going to live in the motion picture home and have all the time in the world to rest and do gardening.
And I just feel like, right now, I have all these kind of ideas and projects and things bursting and bumping around in my head, so now is just the time to do them. It is kind of a lot at the moment, but therell be another time when I dont have a lot of ideas and I can slow down.
Do you have problems moving from one to the other?
Yes, I really do. My priest, whos this lovely guy whos down in San Diego and who I talk to every now and then when Im losing my mind, and I say God, what am I going to do? Hes this fabulous priest and hell say, Michele, youre selling yourself and doing PR and calling up clubs to book gigs and just dealing with all that stuff you have to do and dealing with various business aspects of your careers. Thats such a different place than where you have to be when you write. Or when you write music.
And its really hard. You think: at 3:30, Im going to start this other thing. So you have to go away and go do something else for a couple of hours,like go to the pet store or the market. Or do something to get your mind off everything and then try to clear your head enough to sit down and work.
Of everything that you do, which is your favorite?
Actually, my favorite thing is writing, mostly because you get to do it completely by yourself. I get a great deal of satisfaction from it. You can sit down for several hours and come up with stuff that you really like.
Thats when I feel in control of my life. I think that when youre in the arts, you dont always feel in control of your life. Your finances go up, they go down you have a lot of instability. But with writing, I feel like Im creating my life. When I was writing the Jaguar book, I felt like I was creating this great, big new world.
So, how do you balance your personal and professional life?
(laughter) What personal life?
I believe it will all work out when the right person comes along. Or not.